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Oh these sweet moments of pure frustration. I am so tired of sitting around NOT knowing what my body is doing! I'm having to wait for my appointment on November 8th with a doctor that's going to schedule me with a gasterowhatever doctor so they can take a looksie and see where all these stomach issues are manufactered.

A friend of mine I think guessed correctly: ULCERS (slurp!)

Sounds absolutely delicious. To keep from being disgusted that this could be the problem, I try to think of the great Curt Cobain. He too had ulcers, and they were so bad that he drank himself to death. 

That basically makes me a bad ass...

or not.

On the bright side, my movie knowledge has increased superbly in the last 2 weeks! I'm so infatuated unrealistic situations that I don't know if I can return to the "real" world without being sorely disappointed that someone isn't going to hand me a cryptex and ask me to solve the mystery OR wake up one day and realize that I'm actually a government employee that's been trained to forget that I'm a KILLER! 

See, I have this image in my head that plays along with what's actually happening, and usually those two images are completely opposite. I love my life, BUT what about the movies? My mind is constantly running in movie reel mode. The thing that's disappointing is when I'm people watching at school NOBODY cooperates! People must always do boring or typical things...so when I get home I don't feel like anything exciting happened, because I didn't get to SEE anything. Like when people are having a conflict, I'm like "C'mon! Tell him that you'll shove his foot so far down his throat that it will dislodge the stick he has up his ass everyday! or at least tell him he's ugly?" What do I get instead?:

Guy: "I tried calling you"

Girl: "I know"

Guy: "So, if I call you later, will you pick up?"

Girl: "I don't know, I'm busy."

Guy: "Oh, Ok."

Girl: "I've got class."

Guy: "ok"

*Walks in opposite direction*

I know that people usually don't like confrontation and everyone prides themselves if they have a "drama free" situation, but I beg to differ. Why would you ever want a drama free life? 

Well, how do you define drama?

most people think drama means two bitches in a cat fight. Yes, that can be "drama", but that doesn't mean that has to be THE drama your life has. There is some drama that is settle and provokes some really amazing emotions and thoughts. Can't appreciate the ups without the downs. We got to have emphasis and meaning when we say things, struggle with the right words to say or at least be honest... It's so refreshing to feel like you're fighting something. It's Human...

All right, I've been inside for far too many days...

I am seriously considering going on a month long trip to Colorado after all this nonsense is over with my stomach. 

For now I'm going to watch another episode of Alias.

muaha. 

-B